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A’s to the Q’s!

We talked…and talked…and talked again! While I was nervously excited about the baby growing within me, I was equally paranoid about a thousand things! Is this the right time? There is still so much that I wanted to do! We’re married just two years, isn’t it a bit too early?? How will I handle the baby with no help? I am barely able to run the house with an office to go to, how will I handle the baby now? Will I be okay being a stay at home mother for the first six months? Will I turn into a demanding nagging wife, looking at blaming her husband for getting her bumped before her time? Is Aniruddha ready? Am I really really ready for this? 

*waves her hand in the air*

You get the picture? A perfectly planned event pre-poned without warning isn’t a good thing for the nerves! And I blame it on my raging hormones at the moment that I suddenly got worked up with a lot of anxiety…I really needed some time out to have a sane conversation with myself! Thankfully I did…and the answers came soon enough…

Q – Is this the right time? 

– Have I not answered surprise tests before? Have I not taken an untrodden path before? I have never been scared…so why now? I wasn’t planning for it…it was designed to be this way! I may not know, but perhaps, this is the right time!

Review of the A above – Okay, this is sounds highly spiritual and very unlike me…but what the hell…now the whole world knows how ‘traditional’ I feel about it! 

 

Q – There is still so much that I wanted to do! We’re married just two years, isn’t it a bit too early?? 

A – Mmmmm…how long have we been together?? Ten years…we’ve had our roller coaster rides! Time for responsibility!

Review of the A above – uh hello! Why does a baby have to change my relationship with my husband?? May sound idealist to all those who have experienced a change…but I know ‘us’…we won’t change! 

 

Q – How will I handle the baby with no help? I am barely able to run the house with an office to go to, how will I handle the baby now?

A – Get help! A house maid, for 24 hours…who will help me run the house and handle the baby when the time comes! 

Review of the A above – It’s easier said than executed! I am still running around to find one…damn those commission hungry agents!! 

 

Q – Will I be okay being a stay at home mother for the first six months?  

A – “Take a break girl…you need it!!” 

Review of the A above – I still believe that! 

 

Q – Will I turn into a demanding nagging wife, looking at blaming her husband for getting her bumped before her time? 

A – No! As long as he remains the lovable adorable husband that he promised to be whenever I become pregnant! 

Review of the A above – I have fallen in love all over again!!! 😀 

 

Q – Is Aniruddha ready? 

A – Oh boy! Yes he is…

Review of the A above – He is the one who has told more people…I am still holding my horses! 

 

Q – Am I really really ready for this? 

A – I am born ready! 

Review of the A above – Maybe not born…but growing everyday with the baby! I am a little more ready today than I was yesterday! 

 

 

 

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Hmm…how??

That’s what I thought when I first discovered I am pregnant! We hadn’t been planning…I mean we had planned it for next year, since we wanted a late 2012 baby…but then is it this easy to get bumped without even ‘trying’ for it??!! C’mon…we haven’t been even living together for the past two months!! With wheels on our heels, Aniruddha and I have been zipping in and out of town for a while now! And without getting into details of our ‘private’ lives here, all I can really say that we haven’t been really really working too hard!!

I’ve heard of too many tales of couples in their 30’s trying for a baby…and to be honest I was ready to be one of them, and not just because I was battling my mother’s concern of having a late baby, but because I knew I didn’t have the healthiest body to conceive without a lot many hits! So hit and trial is what I was mentally prepared for…! So you can imagine my shock and disbelief when I discovered the double lines in the home pregnancy kit! I was anyways too sleepy in the morning, but those two distinct lines really woke me up! Next up, was a phone call that I had to make…to the father of my child and break him the news!

The father was on his way to work…and until then I was trying to control my breathing and sound normal, my heart was jumping a beat to hear the voice on the other end! And the reaction was just the same… “hmm…how??” Thank God, for an understanding husband…a doubting Thomas would have asked for a DNA test! The next step was to go for a doc’s check up…just to make sure that we weren’t getting worked up for nothing! An USG confirmed a 5week + pregnancy and both of us again did our math! We decided to keep it to ourselves for a while…but that ‘while’ wasn’t too long!